Change.

Change can be good.

But sometimes it's not.

I don't like change.

I like routine.

I like knowing what to do, and what's going to happen.

Today the Annual Change for 2014 in The Salvation Army was made public (here).

We're getting yet another officer change. Fourth one in three years.

In 2011, Ian and Deanna Scott came. It was so great! I had some classes with them when I attended Booth College, so it was great being able to reconnect with them again! Especially with Deanna, we bonded so fast and so well, I was comfortable opening up with her.

But only a few months into their stay here, they were put on leave, and in the end they ended up leaving The Salvation Army. (Long story, not my story to tell, but the jist of it is, they were gone.)

Then we had guest speakers until we were appointed cadets in 2012, and then Margaret in 2013.

And even when Margaret came, I had a really hard time in opening up to her, because I didn't know if she'd be here longer than a year.

And I was honest with her about that. There was a time when I was struggling, she offered for me to chat with her, but I flat out told her that I didn't want to let her in simply because I couldn't be sure that she'd be able to walk the journey with me. She understood, and also shared that she's also frustrated with that.

It is so frustrating not being able to open up to my pastor.

It is so frustrating not being able to trust that the Salvation Army will keep them there to build and maintain relationships within the corps.

So now we have Tina and Keesom coming in at the end of June.

A part of me doesn't want to stay at Weston. I'm so tired of The Salvation Army making so many changes, especially with Weston.

But the responsible side of me knows that it would not be right to just pick up and leave right in the middle of a transition.

I'm frustrated.

So incredibly frustrated.

And I really hope that Tina and Keesom will be here for at least a few years...