Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Citrus Asparagus Salad

This is another recipe from Yum In My Tum, seriously some great recipes on that site! This was super yummy freshly made!!! =D Though not so good the next day; still alright, just...not fresh lol. So this recipe is approved, though not for leftovers.

Asparagus Citrus Salad
1 bunch fresh asparagus spears, ends trimmed
2 tbsp EVOO (I didn't use this much though...)
Parmesan cheese
4 tbsp red wine vinegar
1 ts phoney
Zest of half a lemon
3/4 tsp Dijon mustard (I just used yellow)
1 blood orange, peeled and segmented
1 orange, peeled and segmented
(I just used 3 mandarines, cuz I'm not a big fan of other oranges)

Preheat oven to 350F. Drizzle asparagus with EVOO and season with S&P. Place asparagus on a foil-lined baking sheet (for easy cleanup), and cook in the oven for 10-15 minutes or until bright green and tender-crisp.

Meanwhile, combine vinegar, honey, lemon zest, and mustard in a bowl and slowly whisk in EVOO until desired consistency is reached (I used 1/4 cup but found it was too much). Season with S&P to taste.

Plate asparagus and drizzle liberally with a few tablespoons of the vinaigrette. Top with orange segments and drizzle with remaining vinaigrette to taste. Garnish with thin ribbons of Parmesan cheese (I did not, cuz I didn't have any, surprisingly!).

Monday, June 27, 2011

New Recipes!

So, I got a few recipes from Yum In My Tum, and figured I'd try a few out. So here goes!

Egg Nests
4 slices of white bread (I used rye, came out fine)
2 cubes of chopped frozen spinach, moisture squeezed out (I used fresh, just a little bit, though it definitely could've used more!)
4 eggs
Grated cheese
Crumbled cooked bacon

Preheat oven to 350.
Grease a muffin tin.
Cut the crust off the bread. Gently push each slice into a muffin tin, making a little bread bowl.
Put a bit of spinach in the bottom of each bread bowl. Top with a little bit of butter. Slowly top with a raw egg. Top with salt and pepper if you wish.
Bake for 15-20 min. or until the egg is cooked and the bread is lightly toasted. Top with a bit of cheese and the crumbed bacon.

As you can see, I didn't add the cheese or bacon, but these were delicious nonetheless. And what a brilliant idea, cooking them in a little bread cup in a muffin tin! Delicious, definitely an approved recipe!

Next one, from the same site:

Warm Broccoli and Quinoa Salad with Carrot Ginger Dressing
1.5 cups quinoa
3 cups water
1/2 tsp salt
1 bag (10 oz.) broccoli florets (I just bought broccoli not in a bag...)
2 medium tomatoes, chopped
2/3 cup chopped carrot (about 1 large)
3 tbsp finely chopped peeled fresh ginger
3 tbsp water
3 tbsp vegetable oil (I used olive/grapeseed/flax oil)
2 tbsp seasoned rice vinegar
2 tsp soy sauce
2 tsp Asian sesame oil
1/4 tsp salt

In sieve, rinse quinoa with cold running water. In saucepan, combine quinoa, water, and salt; heat to boiling over high heat. Reduce heat to low; cover and simmer 20 minutes or until water is absorbed. Transfer quinoa to large bowl.

Meanwhile, steam broccoli until tender-crisp. Add to quinoa in bowl.

In blender, combine carrot, ginger, oil, vinegar, soy sauce, sesame oil, water, and salt; blend until pureed. Add to quinoa, broccoli, and tomatoes and toss to combine. Serve salad warm or at room temperature.

This as well is super delicious!!! I was a little wary of the ginger, cuz I'm pretty sensitive to ginger ever since trying candied ginger once, but I'm apparently coming to accept ginger as not such a terrible thing after all! I was also a bit worried that there might not have been enough dressing to cover the salad, but it's actually the perfect amount, considering the such strong flavour of fresh ginger. Approved!

Sunday, June 26, 2011


I have quite a bit of stuff on my mind tonight, a few things that God has put in my head tonight when I was at my friend's Awakening art show.

First of all, there was a point where there was a girl who was using like, flag-type things and dancing, and it was explained that what she was doing was completely inspired by the Holy Spirit, not rehearsed at all. And it lead to explaining how we can worship God by simply following the Holy Spirit and doing whatever He leads us to do.

And it got me thinking about music. Especially when listening to music. I find that if I am listening to music, I move. Like, not get-up-and-dance kind of moving, though I have been known to randomly do that too haha! But like, foot bobbing or tapping, or playing table drums with my index fingers (y'all know what I'm talking about, right? =P)

Which led to me thinking, what is it about music that makes me move? Why is my body so prone to moving in response to moving?

No, I don't really have an answer, but it just got me thinking about it... Am I meant to dance? To dance for God, like David did? (But preferably clothed...)

Another thing I was thinking about was the story of Ezekiel prophesying to the dry bones. The group at the show did a piece about it, where they sang and read the Scripture passage:

Ezekiel 37:1-15 - The Valley of Dry Bones
The hand of the LORD was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?"

Let's stop here. Can you picture being Ezekiel in this situation? Being asked by God, "Can these dead dried up bones live?" I don't know about you, but I would've been like, "Uh... No." And yet Ezekiel says,

"Sovereign LORD, you alone know."

Wow. It almost sounds like Ezekiel doesn't want to give a straight answer for fear of being wrong. Had he said outright, "No," it would have shown lack of faith that God can do anything. And yet he doesn't straight out say, "Yes," which to me says that he doesn't quite have the faith that God could do it, but he's afraid to reveal that to God.

Moving on:

Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.'"

WHAT??? These bones are dead! They've been dead for a long time, long enough to be dried up and all piled up like this! You're trying to tell me that these bones could come to life?

It's almost like God was asking Ezekiel to test Him. "Do it! Tell these bones that! See if I can actually make them live again!" Could you imagine where this story would have gone had Ezekiel doubted God and didn't prophesy over these bones because of a lack of faith? Could God have gotten His point across as effectively? Would He have chosen someone else to prophesy to the bones, and Ezekiel would've just lost out on that opportunity? My mind reels with all the different what-ifs!

So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

Then imagine actually seeing these bones really coming back together as bodies! Seeing that God CAN do something so extreme and impossible! Actually seeing God doing what He said He can do!

Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.'" So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.

And then, not only have these bones become bodies again, but they come alive!!! It kinda reminds me of the creation story in Genesis 2, where God molds the mud into a human shape, then breathes life into the nostrils to make Adam come alive. Except in this story, the breath comes from the winds, not directly from God Himself. Huh.

Then he said to me: "Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, 'Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.' Therefore prophesy and say to them: 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. Then you, my people, will know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the LORD have spoken, and I have done it, declares the LORD.'"

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Calling All Prayer Warriors!!!

I met some AWESOME people tonight during soup van, and lot of people are in need of prayer! And so I am calling YOU to pray too! I cannot name them because there's rules around that, but I can let you know what to pray about!

A lady needing forgiveness
A lady needing strength
A lady needing to kick her alcoholism
A man who has accepted Christ as his Saviour, HALLELUJAH!!!
Two AWESOME dudes who pretty much travel around on their bikes and witness to people! They are the ones who led the man to Christ tonight!
A lady who believe in the Lord and struggles with addictions

I am SO pumped right now from tonight! I had the honour of praying for the first two ladies, and was a part of the prayer for the third lady. I was serenaded by God through the two dudes and their guitar and harmonicas, and even danced around with them, absolutely amazing those two! I was able to bless the lady who believes in the Lord with a new hat, it's amazing how something so simple as that can make someone's day!

Man, God is so incredibly cool!!!!! =D

"Charade" Amanda Falk

Another day, paint on a face that they expect to see
It’s not all I want, but it’s all I’ve got to make this world believe
Nothings wrong with me...
I’m an artist of emotion, a master of deceit
And the many faces I portray are nothing at all like me
How I long to be free

From this never-ending maze, oh my head's in a daze
Every time I think
Of this over-played charade, oh my hearts gonna fade
And I can’t go on...

It’s a tug-of-war each moment, to hide this pain inside
Or to open up and spill this cup of feelings that I hide?
But what would people do, what would people say?
When hear the truth, will they turn and run away?
Will they throw a stone, or lend a shoulder to lean on?

From this never-ending maze, oh my head's in a daze
Every time I think
Of this over-played charade, oh my hearts gonna fade
And I can’t go on...

It’s not fair, I can’t take this anymore
Oh these tears are drifting me from shore
Is there hope for someone just like me?
Then I hear a voice inside me say, "I can set you free

From this, never-ending maze, I will be your strength
If you let me in
So just, take my hand and see, if you follow me
You can be free..."

Thursday, June 23, 2011

My Delicious Asian Dinner!

Yeah, you're jealous, aren't you?

But no worries, you can make it yourself! =D

1 red onion
Some asparagus
Some bean sprouts
Some chow mein noods
Olive oil for frying the onion on med. high heat
Some sesame oil, soy sauce, and oyster sauce to go in with the veggies and noods.

Ta-dahhhh!!! =D

Pretty simple, I basically used my stir-fry recipe, but I just used different noodles, and added asparagus. And I didn't measure anything. But oh my goodness it was delicious! And I have enough left over for seconds, AND lunch tomorrow, woop woop! =D

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Life Choices

I had my staff evaluation at work today with Maria (my boss) and Cindy. 'Twas good, I was looking forward to it and was glad to hear that they have pretty much the same thoughts as I do when it comes to the different areas of evaluation, if anything they rated me as higher. Definitely was a much needed ego boost.

At the end we talked about some options I have there. I did make sure to be clear that I don't want to be moved from my room, I love my kids and can't see myself being with any other age group, and they agreed with me. But Maria let me know about Red River College's work placement program for the ECE diploma. This is where I could take my 2-year ECE course full-time, but I'd only attend class 2 days a week, and the other 3 days would be spent at work, implementing the stuff I'd learn in class. I'd need to have worked at the centre full-time for at least two years, so if I did this, it would have to be next September, since I've only been full-time since last March...

But Maria had said that in order to do that, I'd need her written approval for the school, and she would totally do that for me. She explained how this would be for someone who is willing to invest their time and energy into the daycare, since the daycare would be investing in them. Not everyone would be suited for something like that, for example the last person whom the daycare supported through the workplace program. I won't name her here, but in that case, things didn't turn out so well, and as soon as she was done her program, she left. Needless to say, Maria wasn't too happy... Now I don't know the entire story of what had happened, but I do know she had moved out of town, so I could understand that's prolly a big reason why she left...

Anyways, financially it would be pretty awesome too. Having my ECE would almost double my salary, if not more. And I would still be paid for 40 hours of work each week, which means I'd be paid to go to class. Of course, I'd still have to pay the tuition, but Maria had said that there's even options there, like bursaries and grants. So it's got me thinking: get paid to go to school for free in order to get a higher salary... Sounds pretty sweet!

My only thing is, am I willing to invest that much into the daycare? I mean, I love my kids, and I overall enjoy the work that I do, but I'm not planning to be there for 10 years... I'm even uncertain whether or not I'd be there for 5. Don't get me wrong, I do plan to be there for the next couple years anyways...

What I really want to get back into is cooking. I love cooking. I don't like cooking in a casual dining environment though. My dream is being able to create my own menu, change it up every month or so, and cooking my menu items. It'd be great to work in a small restaurant with a sous-chef, but it would have to be someone that works the same way I do. There's nothing worse than working a kitchen with someone who works differently. Not that the way they do things is wrong, it's just not the same as my way, and so sometimes it causes issues. Been there, done that...

But I don't want to have to own my own restaurant. I don't want the hassle of management. I just want to created menus and cook the food.

I was talking with Dennis about this the other day, cuz his dream is to own his own restaurant. But he wants to get into baking. Wouldn't it be great if he owned the place, I did dinner dishes, and he did desserts? And we could give each other ideas on dishes? Like, I'd suggest desserts to him, and he'd suggest dinners to me... Man, that'd be soooooo awesome!!!!! And I have worked with Dennis in the kitchen, and we work well together. We get each other, and we can get each others' backs when needed.

Anyways, I guess I just need to figure out what I'm going to do about career choice... I suppose I have until next year, and lots happens in a year... So we'll see...

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Potato Casserole

So.... I had a bunch of potatoes, and some green onions that needed to be used up, so when I was going through a bunch of recipes on my table from the Metro that I'd like to try, I found one that I actually pulled from the Winnipeg Sun that uses potatoes and onions, hurray! =D It does actually call for an onion, but I used green onions, and then I added turkey bacon bits cuz I had some of those in the fridge too... And of course, I left the skins on the potatoes, cuz that's the best part! =D

Potato Casserole
2 cups potatoes, cooked and mashed
8 oz cream cheese, softened
1 onion, chopped
2 eggs, beaten
1 tbsp flour
1/4 tsp salt
1/8 tsp pepper
(does anyone really measure salt and pepper? lol...)

Combine mashed potatoes, cream cheese, onions, eggs, flour, salt, and pepper in a bowl. Use an electric mixer to beat 2-3 minutes at medium speed. Pour into greased casserole dish. Bake in preheated 300F (150C) oven, uncovered for 30-35 minutes.
Serves 2.

Of course, I licked the beaters and the bowl, and now after tasting it after being baked, I almost like the way it tasted beforehand... Although it's still delicious!!! =D

Monday, June 13, 2011


Am I really that strong? I've been told by a few people that it takes a lot of strength to go through this the way I am... Is it really strength? Cuz I don't feel strong at all. I feel weak, worn out, exhausted from fighting this over and over again. I don't see myself as strong, I see myself as a coward because I fear the physical pain. I almost want to, just to prove that I'm not afraid of it, but I know that those thoughts aren't my own.

Just to be clear, I'm not going to hurt myself. Those aren't my thoughts.

I'm more frustrated with myself. It seems like it's a never-ending cycle. I'm good for a while, then BAM! I'm down here again. I'm frustrated that I keep getting back here. I keep resisting what those voices are telling me to do because I know that they're not of myself.

But it's so tiring, I almost feel like I'm suffocating...

I was asked once what I hear in my head, but I can't actually give an exact answer of what they're always saying, it's always different depending on what I'm doing. Like one time when I was walking to my bus stop downtown, I was waiting to cross the street and there was a bus coming, and there was that voice telling me to just walk in front of the bus. Call me crazy, but I almost felt like I was being pushed, but I stepped back.

I don't even know what the point of this blog entry is, I just feel like I need an outlet, a means of communicating what's on my mind. That's the whole point of blogging right?

Sigh I don't know, perhaps I should just go to bed...

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Hot Cheesy Steak Wrap

I just made this with some leftover steak I had in the fridge. I cut it up into small pieces, chopped up a shallot, and fried it all up in a frying pan with a few squirts of Louisiana Hot Sauce. Then I set that stuff aside, cleaned out the frying pan, put the wrap in it, shredded some cheese on top, and put half the steak/shallot mix in the middle. When the cheese started melting, I put the wrap on my plate and wrapped it up. Then I made the second one. It was really good =)


Just so you know, my previous post was not a suicide note. It was not in any way a means of me saying that I was going to hurt myself. I do not want to hurt myself, and I have no intentions of doing so.

What I was trying to say is that life is hard, and sometimes it just gets to a point where I'm tired of it. I look forward to the day that I don't have to live this life anymore, but I'm not willing to end it myself.

Just so you know, I am safe, it just gets overwhelming at times. I will be alright, just not right now.


I don't even know what to write here anymore... I don't know how to express what I'm feeling. Where am I going in life? What's it all for? What's the point of it all? I'm scared to reach out to anyone cuz I don't want anyone else to get involved. I just don't know what to do anymore, I just wish I could go home...

Friday, June 10, 2011